simplicity

"The trouble with so many of us is that we underestimate the power of simplicity. We have a tendency it seems to over complicate our lives and forget what's important and what's not. We tend to mistake movement for achievement. We tend to focus on activities instead of results. And as the pace of life continues to race along in the outside world, we forget that we have the power to control our lives regardless of what's going on outside." - Robert Stuberg

As I look to the future, I realize that simplifying my life probably will be a daunting task, especially when the kids begin school. But I've also looked to my past and realized it was at those times where I was trying to be and do too many things that I was at my most unhappy. Sometimes it's inevitable. I can't help that each night I have what seems like millions of things to do and I won't even mention the weekends. But sometimes all it takes is a couple small realizations to make life seem easier. Like this one - I've finally allowed myself to accept the fact that my house will probably not be as clean and tidy as I would like it to be for quite a long time. To do so would be to sacrifice my energy, my mood and precious time doing other things of more importance. Giving myself permission to let some things go has already eased my mind. As Robert Stuberg says above, we all have the power to control our lives. It seems so simple. We figure out what makes us happy and we work toward forming our lives to that mold. What trips us all up is impatience. Sometimes, although it sounds simple, it is complicated and may take some time. You cannot change your life, your current habits or your current expectations overnight. It is a gradual process. Realizing that sometimes helps.

I've been missing school and at the top of my conscious I've felt it was caused from guilt and shame for quitting. But I've come to the conclusion that I did the right thing by quitting school... But, I do honestly and truly love learning. Until this point, I've thought I have to pay someone to teach me. I've simplified this and realized I can learn whatever I want through doing things I enjoy. Reading, viewing documentaries, a course or workshop here and there on topics of my choice, not something that is required. Isn't that simple?

I have so many thoughts that have been pouring through my mind over the past few weeks. I think there were so many my mind froze up from being on overload. This new-found energy and inspiration is proof that my mind is fixing itself. Freeing itself up and letting some things out. It feels so good to be writing again. Simple as that....