joy

"Joy is but the sign that creative emotion is fulfilling its purpose." - Charles Du Bos, Writer and scholar, born in France. The son of an English mother, he studied at Oxford, Berlin, and Florence, and became a literary agent. A convert to Catholicism in 1927, he founded the review Vigile in 1930 with François Mauriac, about whom he wrote a sympathetic book. His correspondence with André Gide was published as Le Dialogue avec André Gide

Last night, as Mike was giving Macy her bath, I turned off the TV and sat on the floor in the living room with Nicky and played. I can't really describe how much joy I felt. It was a feeling I haven't felt in such a long time. I have found that he is very peaceful to be around when he's happy and playing.

This wonderful feeling carried over into today. As I picked him out of his crib this morning, he reached for a little toy car that's sitting on his dresser. We sat right down and started playing. Again, I felt joy and calm. I'm not sure if it's the medication or what, but I'm feeling a sense of contentment that I haven't felt in a very long time, maybe not even since very early childhood.
Even at work, I'm feeling happier and more content and this week seemed to just fly by.

I decided Tuesday that, darn it, we were going to put up a Christmas tree this year! We had been thinking it may be more trouble than it's worth to put up a Christmas tree with Nicky crawling all over and Macy in her independant stage. But I began feeling to feel like Scrooge so I decided that we would put it up. I"m glad we did. We played Christmas music and drank wine. Macy helped decorate while Nicky sat in his high chair eating Cheerios. Now... it feels like Christmas.

And the festivities continue... Tonight we have Mike's office Christmas party. It's always really fun and I'm looking forward to it. This weekend we're going to visit a Christmas Light Show in Lindale. Hopefully the next couple weeks go as fast as this one!!